break me

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Sometimes we have to go through painful to learn a lesson. I've just gone through a something with a friend that caused me lots of pain, I felt rejected, and I found it hard to think of other things and get my mood up. I remember I was started walking down the road and started to think things where not fair, anger started to make its way up, but just as it did that God told me to focus on Jesus. It wasn't what I wanted to do, but I forced myself to obey, and thats when God gave me the verse Isaiah 53:3-6. My anger vanished completely. I learnt that God can understand our PAIN because He went through that pain when He came to earth to die for our sins:
Isaiah 53:3-6
3 He was despised and rejected by men,
a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering.
Like one from whom men hide their faces
he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

4 Surely he took up our infirmities
and carried our sorrows,
yet we considered him stricken by God,
smitten by him, and afflicted.

5 But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.

6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to his own way;
and the LORD has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.

right then I knew that I wasn't alone in how I was feeling, Jesus(God) felt the same even worse then what I was feeling. I know that Jesus can understand me in my times of weakness and needs because He too has suffered for me, with that I am comforted. I know I don't just have a God who is distant but one who is close and able to take care of all my needs. I've also learnt during this time about waiting and trusting in the Lord, some situations feel like they have no hope, but if you place your hope in God he will deliver you, but you will most likely have to wait on Him. God I find him like a loving father, the amount of bad things I have done makes me deserving of eternity in Hell, but I am grateful that in God's great love he has forgiven all my sins by taken them on Himself through Jesus Christ at the Cross. I am also thankful that through Jesus when I die I'll get to live with Him because He rose from the dead, and he has victory over death =).